Fresh Start.

Let it start with a new fresh start and new story for this new year.

Happy New Year everyone!

Love,

Aishah.

Tag, you're in.

7 facts about me.

- My name is aishah.

- I am a morning person.

- I like to stare at people. I know it's rude, but I'm just doing my character as an observer.

- He said, I always get a little too carried away everytime I watched movies. I practically hoping it will be happen in my little world except it never will.

- I love dressing myself up even I'm not a real fashionista but it's always just have to be comfy and adorable.

- I am cheap. I care about my money so much.

- It's all about the Ice Lemon Tea.

What is the most important thing in your life.

- My Laptop. Put me wherever you want, as long, you give me my Laptop.

What is the last thing you bought with your own money?

- Chocolate Indulgence cake from Secret Recipe.

Where do you wish to get married?

- In a beautiful English garden filled with rosses and greenish plants all over the place.

(Keep on dreaming.)

How do you think you'll get permanently owned by your lover?

- Too early to think about.

Are you in love?

- If what I'm feeling right now is true, then yes, i am.

Where was the last restaurant you had dinner at?
- I think it was McDonald.

Name the lattest book you bought?
- Elizabeth, I.

What is your full name?
Noraishah Binti Mohd Mokhtar. Simple kan?

Do you prefer mother of father?

-Both, i love.

Name a person you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time?

- Tun Dr Mahathir. I don't like politics but can't denied that he is the best.

Christina or Britney?
- No thanks. JT? Yes, definitely.

Do you do your own laundry?
- I used to whenever I stayed at hostel.

Hugs or kisses?

- P&D.

Point out five things about the person who tag you.

- I hate her for making me do this survey thing. ( U know I stop doing this since, forever.)

- I love her because she is my best friend.

- She's the only person in the world who had experience the smell of the cat's shit in close up with me.

- She's the only one person who could make me feel hate, angry, mad, love, care, guilty at the same time.

- Her name is Nad.

8 things I'm passionate about.

- Art. ( Where I see other people describe the world through it.)

- Fashion. ( One way I could use to express my personality. )

- Movies. ( A way I could escaped from the reality and get into the fairytale.)

- Love stories. ( A beautiful stories about how two people met and fell in love.)

- People's life. ( See the world through others point of view.)

- Love. ( Wonderful when love can change anybody.)

- Colours. ( I can't imagine life without colours. It brightens up my day.)

- Photography. ( Imagine how could a person captured a precious moment and kept it for the rest oh their lives.)

8 Songs I've been litsening to over and over again.

- Deeper Conversation by Yuna.

- After Midnight by Yuna.

- Dan Sebenarnya by Yuna.

- Decode by Paramore.

- Mad Money by Lady Gaga.

- Just Dance by Lady Gaga.

- Like a Star by Corrine Bailey Rae.

- Butterfly by Jason Mraz.

8 Things I learned this year.

- When it comes to design, remember this aishah. MINIMALIST!

- Vintage is so me.

- Friends come and go, but bestfriend just don't.

- When it comes to love, never calculate every second in your relationship, instead just let the time passes by like the wind.

- Think triple time before you buy something.

- You have to put yourself in a completely strange place to get to know yourself.

- Learn from your mistake.

- Travelling is so me.

10 person you tag.

- As I say, Im a lazy person to type 10 person name. Plus, I don't even have 10 friend's blog. Cheers. ;)

Love,

Aishah.

Vintage.

My first important rule in fashion : Always make sure you are comfortable when wearing it. Never make yourself living hell just to look like those models in magz because you'll never be.

So, I would like to share some of my pieces of clothes that I have with me. ;)

These gorgeous vintage dresses was arrived to me last week. Since I have nothing to do, I just started pairing up with my other clothes and it turns out pretty nice.

Forbidden Garden, Enchanted Orchid,Fresh Spring After.

It has been a long time and I even didn't remember the fact being the photographer AND the model at the SAME time was not as easy task! But, it ended up pretty nice and mind my pose. Im not a professional. Enjoy! ;)

The Forbidden Garden dress from VBB, Vintage Belt from VBB,

Bag from Vincci and Brown scarf.

Fresh After Spring dress from VBB, Vintage Belt from VBB, Black Heels from Vincci, Brown scarf.

Enchanted Orchid dress, Base Heels from MOMOE, Black legging from Orange, Vintage Polka Dot scarf, Purple stripes from MNG, Black waist Belt from ORANGE and vintage bag.

Maybe I'll come back more to share some of my darling dresses and clothes to share. Till then. ;)

Love,

Aishah.

Music and Lyrics.

As I was enjoying my delicious McDonald's Beef Prosperity Burger, That's Not My Name song by The Ting Tings came out from the radio. Shukri sat in front of me and looked at me while he was holding his Double Cheeseburger and made that weird face (the which expression when he can't accept the fact and didn't understand why I like such song.)

Aishah : What? What now? What's wrong with the song?
Shukri : Ape yang best sangat lagu ni?
Aishah : It's fun la! Cuba awak dengar betul-betul lirik dia.
Shukri : Siapa yang kisah pasal lirik dia bila orang dengar lagu.

That hits me. I started my debate that people should appreciate the song because of the beautiful lyrics. Yes, the music of the song is a plus but without the lyrics how could a person appreciate it? Well at least, I am.

Shukri : Lets say, kalaw orang dengar satu lagu untuk first time, mesti die dengar beat lagu dia dulu baru terpikir, wow, sape nyanyi ni, and then baru lirik.
Aishah : (Started making my unsatisfied face.)

I mean, it's not fair when he always won every argument. But the best part of it is that he always makes me think twice about the things that I never thought about thinking it. Like small matter like this. Know what I mean?

But really, am I the only person who loves the lyrics first then the rhythm of the song? See here.

Just like a star across my sky,

Just like an angel off the page,

You have appeared to my life,

Feel like I'll never be the same,

Just like a song in my heart,

Just like oil on my hands,

Honour to love youStill I wonder why it is,

I don't argue like this,

With anyone but you,

We do it all the time,

Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,

You make me feel like I'm alive,

When everything else is au fait,

Without a doubt you're on my side,

Heaven has been away too long,

Can't find the words to write this song,

Oh...Your love,

Still I wonder why it is,

I don't argue like this,

With anyone but you,

We do it all the time,

Blowing out my mind,

Now I have come to understand,

The way it is,

It's not a secret anymore,'cause we've been through that before,

From tonight I know that you're the only one,

I've been confused and in the dark,

Now I understand.

This is Like a Star by Corrine Bailey Rae. The first time I heard this song was when my sister told me about this song. I just fell in love with the lyrics the moment I heard it. It was so beautiful untill I had a goosebump. Of course the beautiful melody and rhythm of the song including the wonderful husky voice of Corrine Bailey Rae makes the song perfect as it is. But for me, the lyrics makes the song much more wonderful since it has a lot of meanings behinds every words in it.

Well, back on the argument, I assumed every people has they different ways to appreciate songs. Maybe for me, lyrics is the best thing in a song, well, maybe for him, the music is the main thing (or the fact that he is a 'he') that will lead us to another argument. Lets just make it stay like this shall we? :)

"As one gets to know the melody better, the only thing that keeps the song going is the lyrics. Melody is like physical attraction or sex, while lyrics is more to the heart and emotion of a person."

Movie tittle: Music and Lyrics.

Love,

Aishah.

Tea and Scone.

Dear Jounal,

13.12.2008.
Cameron Highland was so much beautiful than I have imagined. It was a wonderful trip.
We started the journey around 6 am in the morning and we took our own sweet time driving the car. Kak Mun made a delicious sandwhich and the window was kept open because we couldn't wait to feel the fresh air.

There's also magnificent view that we had on the way the journey. I cannot stop talking in the car about how beautiful the view was. The cave, the all green mountains and beautiful perfect blue sky.

Wonderful view.

Once we made it to the mountain and heading to Tanah Rata, the fresh air just kept entering my lungs I just couldn't stop to breathe. I keep doing the hand motion like in the Mukhsin movie, the fish-like hand motion outside the window and I can't stop smiling. When we passed by some the farm and garden, Kak Mun can't stop saying "Eyh, kobis! Eyh, Tomato! Seronoknya!" :)

Some of the farm that we passed by.

To tell the truth, the road was really kind of making me felt a little bit dizzy due to the snake-like road. It's like all the way from the upper mountain to the Tanah Rata, the road was never straight! But the excitement clouds my headache and I just couldn't wait to see our place to stay. Yes true, we get a little bit lost during finding our place, but just a little bit. After arrving, I know it was worth our time to find this place. I was speechless.

Bala's Holiday Chalet is a English-cottage-like chalet and restaurant. It was the most beautiful place I've ever seen with a lot of flowers, leaves around the wall and they have this tea garden where you could enjoy your hot tea and scones. Oh scones, I get to that part later.

We were lead by the owner of the chalet to our own cottage, and oh-my-god, the first thing in my mind, I said, this is just perfect. We had this very small little cottage or room that has little window that viewed the magnificent garden just outside and this little chimney too!

After a few hours just roaming aroung the chalet, we started to headed to the Bharat Tea Plantation which not so far from our place. Haih, just see the picture I took. You will understand what I mean.

This is the view from the tea shop that we sat. No words could describe my feelings that moment. Cold air hit my face and the smell of hot tea filled my nose. I ordered the tea set and of course, the oh-so delicious scones with fresh made strawberry jam and whiped cream. I had my first scone that time, and the taste of it just out of words to describe. With magnificent view ahead of me, hot tea and delicious scones, what else could you asked for a perfect holiday?

Me wit the tea set and see the sones?

After satisfied with our tea, but with me feeling like I wanted to order one more scones, but due to its RM12 per set, I sadly ignored my wanting. So then, of course we have to feel the tea leaves by ourselve. So..

Yep, I agree. We can't use the word 'feel' because I practically hugged and grab the tea leaves because I was so happy to saw it first time in my life. It was funny indeed. :)

We had our luch at T-Cafe in Tanah Rata. I found out about this cafe in the internet, so I said, that we MUST go to this cafe. As usual, I never failed in finding the perfect place, same to go for Bala's Chalet and now this perfect cafe. The menu was just perfect for our budget for this trip and with affordable price. I was practically screamed when I saw the price for the scone set. The waitress was like, why? why? It was RM2.50 pe set for God sake! I just spend RM 12 on scones at Bharat Tea before this. But it's ok. I learn since then that this cafe is the only place that we should go for this trip. :)


I ordered the Char Kueh Teow. It was delicious. I was intended to took pictures of all meal that I ate during that trip. I only remember after I realize I just finished the meal. :)



So, after having a splendid lunch, we all decided to call it off for the day. After the long journey, we decided to just relax and enjoyed the cool breeze at the Bala's Chalet's beautiful garden.




14.12.2008.


We woke up early the next morning and check out around 9.00 am. We wanted to avoided the jam on the way to Brinchang since all the place we wanted to visit are most of it in the Brinchang town. So, yes, we decided to keep breakfast a hold (i know right. how can u start a day without a breakfast?).


We managed to avoid the traffic jam and stop at the Market Square to bought some souvenirs for people back home. We bought some beautiful flowers and strawberry plant too. Kak Mun was so excited about it and promised that she will take care of the strawberry. :)

This chilli is so BIG!

Yep, what point you go to Cameron Highland without eating the strawberry? So, of course we did go to the strawberry farm and enjoyed the fresh plucked strawberry with sweet powder sugar.

Okey, anything else? Yes, the Rose Valley. Kak Mun was the one who are the most excited to see thousands different kind of rosses. It was amazing to see so many types of rosses they have. Yet, it was a lovely place to go. I had fun taking pictures, as usual. :)



We decided to take breakfast since we all was like zombie-hungry. I wanted to go to the T-Cafe again to have the sweet nice scones but sadly it is closed on sunday. But then, we discovered this one restaurant called Vintage Cafe. Since I found the word 'Vintage' sounds nice, despite the fact that we don't want to have breakfast at the mamak, so we decided to gave it a try.

It was worth it. First entered the restaurant, no one was there. We was the only costumer by that time. The owner and the chef of the place was so friendly and gave us a very good services. So he said that I should taste the Speghatti of his own recipe. So, I'll give a try.

Just look at the picture. ( I did managed to took the meal's picture this time.)

Yummy.

It was magnificent. Even though it looks so simple, but it was rich with different types of flavour. Sweet, sour, cheesy, tomatois and many more. The flavour just burst into my mouth and just keep me wanting more of it. Altough the price can't be compared to T-Cafe, but it was worth every penny.

We also managed to ordered a dessert. Soft pancake with freshly made strawberry jam and whipped creak. It was heavenly good.

So, after satisfied with our brunch, we started the road to back home. This time we decided to used the Tapah road and stoped at the Boh Tea Plantation Estate.

My, my. This is what I called, 'ESTATE'. It was nothing like the Bharat Tea Plantation.


It's so BIG! All the mountains on the way to the tea shop was covered with Boh Tea plant! Untill the top of the hills too! We were like so amazed by it untill we arrived at the tea shop I finally realized I got a major headache due to the very-snake-like road untill we have to honk at each corner just to make sure that other car on the other side alert. After having hot Boh Tea, only then I felt much more better.

We also climb to the top of the mountain to the view point. It was so big and it is everywhere. We were surrounded by the tea plant. It was a magnificent view.




So then, we started head back home. I was a little upset, but this 2 days 1 night trip was the best moment for me. So, it was like bye-bye cameron.. and my delicious scones.


That was a story of me on my memorable holiday and hoping that anyone who read this would felt like he/she is being there with me on this trip.

Love,

Aishah.

A Letter.

I thought I was going to write something awful and horrible about what just happened this evening.
But instead, I found out that I'm writing this instead.

Dear Nad,

I love you. I'm sorry I screamed at you this evening. I was so mad, because I've been planning this holiday for us. Things we will do, and imagine how fun its going to be. I was so happy. In fact, I just got back from cameron highland, the place you told me to go for holiday, I did go and it was the best holiday vacation for me so far.

And on the way back, surprisingly I was not sad that I had to leave the beautiful cameron because I knew I would be seeing my friends next week and have a hell lot of fun.

But after I called you, and when the moment u said u cant go, *dub*. It hurts. I'm so sorry again. Yes, I was cursing u after that. Then, I even called ur mom, practically begging for u. But yet, I failed.

I was crying like a baby. But then, shukri said, I have to put myself in ur shoes. So then, I cried again.

And then, im writing this. Im so sorry again. Do forgive me. Fool of me that I'm so hoping that we all could go and I admit that I'm in denial when I know the fact that there will be chance that you could not go (after 5 years experience with you? yep, i definitely in denial.) So, do forgive this one fool friend of yours.

Love, aisu.

Always.

I remember that night. I was watching Sisterhood Travelling Pants 2. Right after the movie ended, I cried. I was crying like a baby, like really poured my heart into it, memories passing by untill I have to drink a glass of water to cooled down myself.

I was missing my friends so, much. To tell the truth, these last 5 months, since my new life begins at college, I was lost with my friends. Carmen's situation in the movie seems preety much the same with me in the real life. I was so lost and found it's hard to suite my new life in a different world. Despite the fact that I have spent my 5 years studying in a girl school and with my friends always be by my side no matter what.

I was having a rough time to tell the truth. At first few weeks, you could spot me at the garden, alone, eating my breakfast while waiting the 9 am studio to start. When all the studio's people doing their work at night, I rather drove back home to Kajang and did my work done in my own room.

I was practically back to my lifestyle back at Johor, when I used to arrived at home, where no one was at home exept the keep changing maids. Most of the time my parents were in KL running their office there. I still could feel the feelings it I want to, where when I get back home from school, it is dark and peacefully silent. Where I ate my dinner, alone, in silent. Where I get my work done, alone in my room. It still the same by that time but in this case, it became much worse. At least I have friends during the day and it's okey to be alone at the night because I know I will saw them the day after that. But now?

After a few weeks, yes true I get much better with new friends which how incredibly nice they are. But it never felt the same,like old times. I saw my friends so easy get on with their new life, but not me. It just never felt the same.

The time when my girls and I keep talking louder and louder even in public like no one was there around us.

The time when my friends used to make jokes, I laughed like a mad women untill my stomach was cramped.

The time when I cried because I felt so stupid when my test marks were so much lower than my friend.

The time when I cried, they hugged me to calm me down.

When we were so happy, when we are arguing, when we are mad at each other and more.

There's too much of emotions and feelings to let go. I've known these girl for 5 years. They have known me inside and out. It's just too much for asking me to let go. And by doing a lot of works, my pain started to reduced bit by bit. But after watching the sisterhood travelling pants, the pain just sort of, come back again. It hurts me more to realize that me and my friends were losing in contact. This should not be happened in the first place. And I am trully sorry this is happening to us.

But yes, I told them about this and we made a deal that from now on we will be in contact, always. It's good to hear and in fact we are planning to go on a holiday together. I just can't wait to feel the emotions and feelings when I'm around them again.

These are the friends that has been trough everything with me.

It is true when people said that you have to find true friends and once you found it, make it as your friends for life.

Lots of love to Nad, Nazee and Elya.

Love,

Aishah.

Trouble Sleeping.

It is 1.40 am in the morning.

Even though the tittle is from one of the Corrine Bailey Rae's song, it is not that I am having a trouble sleeping because of a guy or something. It is because I just, cant, sleep.
So let me tell you something.

Have you ever felt like, you know something, but in reality, you know none of it?

Well, at least I have. In this case, knowing myself.

So? Do you actually, really, sure, i mean, really sure, know who you are? Don't bother thinking about others characters. Start thinking about your own character. Your body, mind and soul. I admit, that i am indeed, still in the process knowing my own self. Actually, this topic has been going on in my head for a long time. Since I can't sleep, it's not hurt to share,agree?

Like say, if I ask you to describe yourself in short one sentence, can you do it? Without, stoping or staring at the laptop and thinking. If you can do it, seriously, you have to be my mentor. Even i can't do it.

But, let me tell you a little bit that I finally realised about myself. I found myself very not similar to other 18 years old girls. Despite the fact that i dont have the 18-years-old-look, also the way how they think, which is, the have-fun-you're-still-18 thinking and it scared me a bit but then I started to learned to love myself. Maybe the fact that I've been spending my life with a 10 years old different in age, brother and a 8 years different in age, sister which is a good thing in my opinion. I got to learned and observed their life and try to prevent myself from doing the wrong things.

Because of that, so far, i am proudly say that i am indeed an independent girl. But like I said before, this is an 18 years old girl talking. I realised that my journey is still long and I have a lot more to learn. I still have a lots of questions about life that i have to find out myself. To be honest it is a little bit scary, for me.

Questions like, how are you going to survive this world? What it takes to survive? Am I really what I am? Is this what you really wanted in your life? I mean, how could an 18 years old girl answer this when she don't much know about life itself and in the process knowing herself? Don't be ridiculous. So far, how i managed myself is by learned from others, and of course, learned from my own mistakes. But sometimes, I too make some foolish mistakes. I mean like, who doesn't?

I always wanted to stop thinking like this and just be a normal 18 years old girl. Don't think about anything, just do what you wanted to do. But in reality, I can't denied that I can't be like that, because, it is wrong. You have to think first before you act or not you will make a stupid decision without even thinking about the possibilities and would regret it for the rest of your life. You know that you can't turn back time. The least you could do is put your past behind and learn from it. At least, i have done that, and still survived.

That's the least I could concluded about myself, so far. But still I want to find a way to describe myself as easy as it could be without writing a lines of paragraphs instead of one short sentence. Or, maybe it is just, impossible to do?

So, I ask again, do you really, i mean, really, sure, know the person the so called, yourself?

Love,
Aishah

What is Your Story to Tell?

Let me tell you something. Have you ever felt being a second intake student? Lets flash back that day shall we?

I was the ONLY person (well, since im the only one who showed up) who got the oppurtunity to be the second intake student of the architecture course in UTM KL City Campus. Oh My, you don't know what i've been through for wanting this. I wanted it so bad, i cried the day my mom called and told i've been accepted.

There is joy and excitement and of course PANIC. I started to think, am i qualified enough for this? Are they going to accept me? And so on. Times seems to flow so fast and the day arrived.

I was wearing my green baju kurung and my white selendang. I woke up at 5 am in the morning, and waited for the bus at 6 am. I got off the bus (FYI, this is my first time i've been in UTM) and started to looked around and wondering, where the hell am i? I walked and walked and i started to sweated like i've been playing sports for 1 hour. And then i have to accepted the reality, that i am indeed, LOST.

I dont know what to do so i called Hakym, he's one of the students, and thank God he found me and brought me to the studio. well, that was how my beautiful morning started on the day i've been waiting so long.

By that time, all the students has been doing the INVISIBLE CITY project for about like 1 month time and the i have to catch up everything that they have learned during that time. To tell the truth, i was SCARED. I felt like i wanted to throw up. Seriously.

But then, as i realised, im not alone. All the students there which have become my dearest friends, my second brothers and sisters, was right there helping me. They are so friendly, i wanted to cried.

Time passing by, im not felt like the 'second intake student' anymore. I've finally felt i am one of them. One of the Arcostic 4 batch. I love everyone of them.

Balqis, the hippi style perfect student, Marisa, who is the most fashionist person ive ever met and damn good in design, Suyen, the most annoying person but yet i loved everytime he makes me laughed like crazy, Ujai, the best brother ever, Cami, the cutest Barney ever, Shah, the workaholic boy version, Iyad, the one who loves his fats, and everyone!

It's not important, wether you are the first or second. What matter is who your are as a person and friends you met to get through the journey together.

Love,

Aishah.

Warming Welcome.

Im Aishah. Nice to meet you.